Two Dreams

I have gifted myself with two dreams lately. I am amazed at dreams like these and all that they have to say; now and for time to come.

The first was in October:

I have been asked to clean out the basement of my ex and his wife's house. I feel I must do this; that it is not an option to say "no". It is dark down here, tiled floor and very dirty and cluttered. I am working very hard clearing things out, sorting and organizing. I am trying to put things (that are not mine) in logical places but am being met with resistance from my ex. My system would be so much better. Why won't he let me work my magic? I am about to complete this task by sweeping the dingy floor with a broom. I look forward to how great it will look when I am done. I look around before I start. I suddenly see how huge this sweeping job will be. It hits me with great clarity that this isn't my house nor my job. I drop the broom. I need to leave. It feels good to take care of myself by dropping something that is not mine to do. I feel no remorse over what I have done thus far. And I feel no remorse not doing the rest, either. I am finished! I leave.

The second dream was a month later, on the morning of my recent birthday as a matter of fact:

I am in the attic of my own home. My ex has just left with the last of his things that had been in here. My husband had things in here, too but not as much as my ex. All of it is gone and so are they. What is left is the amazing space I have created here for myself. It is a large room, very, very light with windows letting sunshine in all over the room. It is decorated in a peaceful, homey style with a rug, nice chairs and a desk. The colors are amazing here. The space is amazing. I watch myself standing in the middle of the room and hear myself declare, "I will never let anyone mess up this space again!"

I awoke from this dream clear that these men only brought into my space what I allowed them to bring; and that I am taking back conscious control of my space (my life); conscious that I am beginning to lose the victim mentality I have carried my whole life.

I believe these dreams speak volumes without explanation. They are highly indicative of my inner-child work. I am so grateful for the way God and I do this important healing work.